Let It Go, June 23rd 2021

 Found another piece I wrote from quite a long while ago, after an early miscarriage before we were pregnant with Noelle. This one shattered me quite a bit at the time because it was, once again, unexpected. I've found peace through the years being able to write after certain life events.

'Let it go'

For years I tried

For years I lied

For years I road it out

For years I have

For years I hope

For years I couldn’t get by

Without thinking about you and without thinking about the dream

Without any doubts or worries

Without nights with tears or screams

I didn’t know how much I lost for when years we tried and tried

I didn’t understand that a part of us had left my side

Goodbye sweet dream I’ll dream of you when I go to bed at night

One day I hope that you’ll be here so these tears can dry

Until then, I

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let the tears flow

Let it go

Let it go

Don’t hold on to the pain

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let the fear go

Let it go

Let it go

Don’t torment on worry and dread

Let it go

Let it go

Another day

Another night

Another sad goodbye

Another surprise

Not the one I wanted

It wasn’t supposed to be your time

I’m holding onto this moment even though it’s already gone

I’m holding onto you, hands are shaking, I can’t believe my eyes

I didn’t know how loved you until I said goodbye

And now I realize that a part of us has left my life

Goodbye sweet babe I’ll dream of you when I go to bed at night

One day I hope that you’ll be here so these days feel complete

Until then

Just breathe

(Sigh)

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let the tears flow

Let it go

Let it go

Don’t hold on to the pain

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let the fear go

Let it go

Let it go

Don’t torment on worry and dread

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

EvelynSchwenke1/28/2020