After my grief counseling session this week I've had a conversation with one of our cats, Roxy, who's very vocal and likes being the center of attention whens she comes around. I feel like she can pick up on my energy today and that I needed someone beside me.
Much emotion surrounding recent events in my life. I didn't even get a chance to get to it all now that I realize as one hour to catch up on two weeks worth of life events, isn't enough time. Fortunately for the next two weeks we will be meeting weekly.
I realize that I have nothing to prove, to anyone, about anything. And personal events and choices in my life don't have to be publicized. That's right, guess what everyone, we don't have to publicly announce we are left or right, up or down, in or out.. etc... We don't have to point it out and play the blame game, shame, badmouth or build ourselves up by hurting others. That does not do any good in the long run and shows more our own inner suffering and conflict we have than anything else.
So why mention this here? Because this is one of my safe places to speak on a public format.
I'm just a person trying to make the best of my life, raise a not so little one, be there for my family, myself, and do what I can for others..
I still have a lot of healing ahead of me. Grief comes in many forms and isn't just confined to the loss of a child or loved one.
My hope for the week is for people to be a little more kind to one another, even if their viewpoints differ from yours. Try to step out of that box and look inward. A lot more can be resolved with love than with hate.
I continue to hold onto hope for the present and future, all while being realistic. It's not easy at times, and at times I may feel a little jaded, however I'm trying my best and that is all I can ask for at this time.
Take care of yourselves.
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