Blog entry - Holding onto Hope
9 weeks since we said hello and goodbye baby girl. Hard to believe it’s possible. And in two days it will be 9 weeks that I’ve been pumping your milk and donating in your memory. Noelle I miss you so much. It all feels like a blur now, a distant memory... I’m left feeling like there is a hole in my heart that was shattered into an infinite amount of pieces, it will take a long time to heal and mend the pieces back together. Your father misses you so very much, he only got to hold you in his arms for a few hours, while I held you within me for nine months. Your big brother misses you too and only spent about 45 minutes with you, held you, looked at you, touched your hands and your feet, looked at your precious face, your ears, admiring your hair, remarking what a little belly button you have when we went to swaddle you with a blanket... So many moments we wish we had more of our dear Noelle. Thank you for coming into our lives, thank you for blessing us with time earthside. We wish we could have watched you grow up a little. Forever living in our hearts. Thank you for making me a mother again. Your life was such a gift. We will never forget you. Love, Momma.
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