First positive Pregnancy Tests

I remember those first positive pregnancy tests. It was a surprise to us all. 

Somehow our son knew we were pregnant before we were and at first saying twins or triplets, oh my... 

We welcomed with open heart however many babies there would be, were nervous and excited for the journey ahead. 

I already was beginning to have early symptoms of pregnancy before testing and didn't realize it at the time. Realizing my cycle was late by a few days I thought when I would take a pregnancy test that it would say negative and my period would be there hours later,.. that didn't happen this time. 

This is one of the journal entries I made mid April and then when we had our pregnancy confirmed. 

"I know we don’t have a solid answer yet and it’s all just hope and dreams and positive pregnancy tests. However know our sweet baby, your mommy and daddy want you in this world so much.
Hold on little one. Hold on. I promise it’ll be worth the adventure if you choose to stay with us and our family.
Please hold on.
I love you!!!
"

And this was the second journal entry a few days later in the month of April... 

"We are definitely pregnant! Need to repeat on Thursday however office closed on Friday and probably won’t know until Monday. Told may not need appointment in person on Tuesday and may be virtual appointment instead.

Told from Dr office that HCG looks fine. It’s a little early still however was 237, and Progesterone is 20.7 and anything over 15 is good.

Need to repeat on Thursday.

Said no sonogram this early on. And higher risk of spontaneous miscarriage due to my age. I wish she wouldn’t have mentioned that part.

Told the office will be praying for me and thinking of me. reminded me that this is a natural pregnancy so it will be different.

It’s real. It’s really real!!!! We are pregnant!!! "

Oh how our heart were bursting with excitement and anticipation for the future, unknowing what would be ahead of us.

This year has been such an unusual year and one we will not soon forget. I'm so thankful that I can share our journey with our family and our friends, and with loss families too. I feel it's important to be open at times, put yourself out there, and allow others to see a part of you. To let others know if they have experienced struggle or loss that they are not alone. I'm reminding myself today how loved our family is, how loved our little baby girl is, and that we are indeed not alone in this journey. Much love. <3