Blog entry- Holding onto Hope
Dear Noelle,
Missing you a lot today. It’s been almost 5 weeks since you were born. Doesn’t seem possible. Feels like we just met you and said goodbye yesterday.
I had a dream several days ago that felt so real. I was nursing a newborn baby your milk, and it brought me so much comfort and peace. I didn’t realize how challenging pumping your milk would be and how much healing this has brought me so far. It also brings me moments of sadness because you’re not here.
I made a donation in your memory, our beautiful Noelle. And as I write this I feel I’ve been holding onto so much because here come the tears.
It feels so wonderful to know your milk will help nourish another child.
This loss has hit me hard and I haven’t wanted to reach out to many people over the phone. I will. It’s just not easy to say out loud that you’re gone.
Wishing you were here. I love you and I miss you. Forever and ever baby girl. Our precious little peanut. Our miracle. I continue to hold onto hope. Until we meet again little one you remain forever living in my heart.
Love,
Your Momma
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